Failure (2000)
| Naked |  |
| I Am The Rain | |
| House On Fire | |
| Tried | |
| Disappoint | |
| Divide | |
| Longevity | |
| Silence | |
| Awake | |
| King Of Insects |
NAKED
Awake aware aloneLost and far from home
I walk without these walls
So there is less to fall
I am naked
I have nothing left
My bones are picked clean
And riddled with regrets
Nothing can touch me
I've nothing left to take
For I am naked
But I can never break
Bombarded by brutal events
Like the rays of a sun
Knocked to my knees
By the waves that continued to come
Each time I rise to my feet
I am knocked to the ground
But I am an element
Nothing can break me down
I am naked
I have nothing left
My bones are picked clean
And riddled with regrets
Nothing can touch me
I've nothing left to take
For I am naked
But I can never break
Link after link in a chain
Pulling hard at my limbs
The search party's lost now
The outlook is growing dim
Praying for wisdom
There's nobody left to impart
But I am an atom
And nothing can take me apart
I am naked
I have nothing left
My bones are picked clean
And riddled with regrets
Nothing can touch me
I've nothing left to take
For I am naked
But I can never break
I AM THE RAIN
Too eager to appeaseThe cure is the disease
And it's only growing worse
Day by day it takes its hold
Divides its cells a thousandfold
And makes your blindness seem perverse
Out of sight and out of mind
Are deadly traits when they're combined
But it's easier that way
Sit and watch the world go by
While all the problems multiply
With nothing left to do but pray
I am the rain
Falling down to cover you
Wish me away
But I'm here for your own good
I am the storm
Sent to wake you from your dream
Show me your scorn
But you'll thank me in the end
These amenities are nice
But there is need for sacrifice
You must lose so you may gain
It's too easy to malign
The implements that steal our time
But it's we who are to blame
Fill your pockets while you can
And try to keep the upper hand
The voice of reason sounds so shrill
Surround yourself with all you own
Work your fingers to the bone
And happiness evades you still
I am the rain
Falling down to cover you
Wish me away
But I'm here for your own good
I am the storm
Sent to wake you from your dream
Show me your scorn
But you'll thank me in the end
Too eager to appease
You've lost the forest for the trees
And it really is a shame
It is such a sorry sight
When you evaluate your life
You've only got yourself to blame
I am the rain
Falling down to cover you
Wish me away
But I'm here for your own good
I am the storm
Sent to wake you from your dream
Show me your scorn
But you'll thank me in the end
HOUSE ON FIRE
Sifting through the ashesWith unsteady hands
Searching for the remnants
Of a broken man
A history of hollow lives
And low ideals
A backlog of wrongdoing
We never conceal
I rise to my feet
And walk away from the dross
Towards the doorway
Of our mutual and harrowing loss
The only way I know
To shake myself of this curse
Is to bring myself to something
That is measurably worse
I sought refuge in a house on fire
I took shelter in a wall of flame
I built a prison in my own subconscious
There's nothing else left
Nothing else left to blame.
Emerging from the wreckage
Of a life that once was
Confounded by the damage
My own psyche does
I bear the scars
Of an insufferable will
And the tyrannical reign
it threatens to instill
Some seek control
By grabbing hold of their lives
In a futile attempt
To help themselves survive
I dig myself
Into a much deeper hole
Running from a fate
That I can never control
I sought refuge in a house on fire
I took shelter in a wall of flame
I built a prison in my own subconscious
There's nothing else left
Nothing else left to blame.
I woke up
In a column of ash
While the world came down
In a horrible crash
I was naive
For ever wanting this much
Using self-deception
As my only crutch
Footsteps diverge
From the path they once walked
Words are eclipsed
By the language they talked
Actions betrayed
By promises broken
Flames consume intentions
Best left unspoken
I sought refuge in a house on fire
I took shelter in a wall of flame
I built a prison in my own subconscious
There's nothing else left
Nothing else left to blame.
TRIED
I tried I failed to believeIn the reward I would receive
If only heaven's distant sun
Would burn away all the things I'd done
I tried to no avail
To keep my eyes from growing pale
But my vision came too late
And my belief started to abate
Like a tide recedes from rocky shores
I drew back no matter how much you implored
I have failed to see the beauty here
Everything I loved has disappeared
Worlds collide without a sound
And flames arise from frozen ground
But nothing can bring back my faith
You tried your best, but I'm afraid that it's too late
I looked into your eyes
For some sign of surprise
That I would question all of this
That I would stand upon that precipice
But the look would never come
As you just stood there growing numb
And your eyes dropped to the ground
In search of something I might find profound
Like a tide recedes from rocky shores
I drew back no matter how much you implored
I have failed to see the beauty here
Everything I loved has disappeared
Worlds collide without a sound
And flames arise from frozen ground
But nothing can bring back my faith
You tried your best, but I'm afraid that it's too late
I tried I failed to forgive
For the life you made me live
A confusing ride at best
And at its worst it seemed so meaningless
If there's a lesson to be learned
Some sort of wisdom to be earned
It held too great a price
It required too great a sacrifice
Like a tide recedes from rocky shores
I drew back no matter how much you implored
I have failed to see the beauty here
Everything I loved has disappeared
Worlds collide without a sound
And flames arise from frozen ground
But nothing can bring back my faith
You tried your best, but I'm afraid that it's too late
DISAPPOINT
Just one more timeFor the sake of sanity
Tell me why
Explain the gravity
That drove you to this
That brought you to this place
That pushed you down
Into the soil's embrace
Give me the chance
I was denied
To sit and talk with you
For one last time
Did I disappoint you?
Did I let you down?
Did I stand on the shore
And watch you as you drowned?
Can you forgive me?
I never knew
The pain you carried
Deep inside of you.
I can't forget
Having to see
The words that knocked the wind
Right out of me
It's not enough
I've come undone
Trying to find sense
Where there is none
Just give me peace
You owe me that
To help ward off the fears
I must combat
Did I disappoint you?
Did I let you down?
Did I stand on the shore
And watch you as you drowned?
Can you forgive me?
I never knew
The pain you carried
Deep inside of you.
And so I ask
For one more chance
To understand
This senseless circumstance
Help me to see
This through your eyes
The reasons I've been trying
To surmise
Though you are gone
I am still your son
And while your pain is over
Mine has just begun
Did I disappoint you?
Did I let you down?
Did I stand on the shore
And watch you as you drowned?
Can you forgive me?
I never knew
The pain you carried
Deep inside of you.
DIVIDE
I lost myself in shapeless oceansWhose depths concealed more than they showed
Beliefs obscured by mists around them
A legacy they'd been bestowed
Columns of ice paint awkward pictures
Distorted forms that once seemed real
Engulfed inside transparent textures
Billowing curtains as hard as steel
For all the noise filling the landscape
Whispers & cries with no reply
It's quiet here within these boundaries
And thoughts collect like pools of light
My eyes divide the sky
As sirens sound in heaven
My will brings down the moon
And shatters it to pieces
The silence grew inconsequential
The day became a paradigm
A thousand years, a hundred decades
An arbitrary slice of time
I found myself with no companion
Except the salty earth and sky
And suddenly there came my focus
The world around me clarified
My eyes divide the sky
As sirens sound in heaven
My will brings down the moon
And shatters it to pieces
And so I walked in isolation
Hoping solace would cross my path
Ignored the road that lay behind me
And stepped away from the aftermath
I lost myself in shapeless oceans
Whose waters turned from dark to clear
I floated there, a tiny island
With no more doubt, with no more fear
My eyes divide the sky
As sirens sound in heaven
My will brings down the moon
And shatters it to pieces
LONGEVITY
I forgive your weaknessIn light of all this bleakness
You were merely human
Destined to be ruined
Startled as your brevity
Turned to my longevity
I can't follow your steps
Can't go the places you went
I must forge my own path
Overcome & surpass
Startled as your brevity
Turned to my longevity
The more I see around me
The more it does to ground me
At peace with all my limits
Grateful for all I'm given
Startled as your brevity
Turned to my longevity
SILENCE
I want you to know the thoughtsMy mind contains
I want you to feel the rage
Pulse through my veins
I want you to see the anger
In my eyes
I want you to feel fear
For your own life
I want to see the tears
Fill up your eyes
I want to see you beg
And apologize
I want to walk behind you
Without a sound
I want to burn your body
To the ground
Don't let my silence
Bother you
I'm only seething
Don't misconstrue
Silence as safety
As security
There's an explosion
Inside of me
I want you to know the depths
Of my disgust
I want you to learn
The meaningless of trust
I want you to rue the day
That you were born
I want you to feel the fury
Of my storm
I want my silence to keep
You up at night
I want you to know the hatred
You incite
I want you to sit and listen
To me scathe
I want to dance upon your
Sorry grave.
Don't let my silence
Bother you
I'm only seething
Don't misconstrue
Silence as safety
As security
There's an explosion
Inside of me
AWAKE
I am lostThe footprints that I left have disappeared
For now I am driving blind
Accelerate
Without a destination to welcome me
This road is just an endless loop
Every time I close my eyes
The noise inside me amplifies
I can't escape
I relive every moment of the day
Every misstep I have made
Finds a way it can invade
My every thought
And this is why I find myself awake
Directionless
The letters on the signs have long since faded
The sky conspires to swallow me
Paid the price
For burning all the maps to warm myself
I threw their ashes to the wind
Every time I close my eyes
The noise inside me amplifies
I can't escape
I relive every moment of the day
Every misstep I have made
Finds a way it can invade
My every thought
And this is why I find myself awake
Walk away
Time to leave the realm of the familiar
To find a place where sleep can come
Hesitate
For one last time I shout into the sky
To wake the ones I'll leave behind
Every time I close my eyes
The noise inside me amplifies
I can't escape
I relive every moment of the day
Every misstep I have made
Finds a way it can invade
My every thought
And this is why I find myself awake
KING OF INSECTS
Words come easyBehind a screen
When there's no interface-to-face
To be seen
King of Insects
You eat your own
Atop an anthill
You call your throne
Kingdom of one
So unaware
As one-by-one your subjects
Vanish into air
Chatter to the wind
Make your decree
And save your venom
For the ones who disagree
Your castle walls are falling
Your body's frail
Your window on the world
Is minuscule in scale
Burrow deep now
Escape the light
Heaven forbid you have to face
The ones you slight
