Addendum (2001)
LET ME BE YOUR ARMOUR
Let me take the fallLet me take the blame
Let me carry you from hell
To home again.
Let me walk for you
When your legs are weak
Let me find the words for you
When you can't speak
Let me be your armor
Let me be your shield
Let me take away the pain you feel (your armor)
Let me be the light
That guides your way through darkest night
Let me be your armor.
Let me take the blows
That were meant for you
Let me help you the trials
You're going through
Let me keep you safe
From the world outside
Let me wipe away the tears
That fill your eyes
Let me be your armor
Let me be your shield
Let me take away the pain you feel (your armor)
Let me be the light
That guides your way through darkest night
Let me be your armor.
Let me keep you from
Experience you need
Let me bind you with my selfishness
And greed
Let me stifle you
Let me have control
Let me smother
Every aspect of your soul
Let me be your armor
Let me be your shield
Let me take away the pain you feel (your armor)
Let me be the light
That guides your way through darkest night
Let me be your armor.
AWAKE
I am lostThe footprints that I left have disappeared
For now I am driving blind
Accelerate
Without a destination to welcome me
This road is just an endless loop
Every time I close my eyes
The noise inside me amplifies
I can't escape
I relive every moment of the day
Every misstep I have made
Finds a way it can invade
My every thought
And this is why I find myself awake
Directionless
The letters on the signs have long since faded
The sky conspires to swallow me
Paid the price
For burning all the maps to warm myself
I threw their ashes to the wind
Every time I close my eyes
The noise inside me amplifies
I can't escape
I relive every moment of the day
Every misstep I have made
Finds a way it can invade
My every thought
And this is why I find myself awake
Walk away
Time to leave the realm of the familiar
To find a place where sleep can come
Hesitate
For one last time I shout into the sky
To wake the ones I'll leave behind
Every time I close my eyes
The noise inside me amplifies
I can't escape
I relive every moment of the day
Every misstep I have made
Finds a way it can invade
My every thought
And this is why I find myself awake
NAKED
Awake aware aloneLost and far from home
I walk without these walls
So there is less to fall
I am naked
I have nothing left
My bones are picked clean
And riddled with regrets
Nothing can touch me
I've nothing left to take
For I am naked
But I can never break
Bombarded by brutal events
Like the rays of a sun
Knocked to my knees
By the waves that continued to come
Each time I rise to my feet
I am knocked to the ground
But I am an element
Nothing can break me down
I am naked
I have nothing left
My bones are picked clean
And riddled with regrets
Nothing can touch me
I've nothing left to take
For I am naked
But I can never break
Link after link in a chain
Pulling hard at my limbs
The search party's lost now
The outlook is growing dim
Praying for wisdom
There's nobody left to impart
But I am an atom
And nothing can take me apart
I am naked
I have nothing left
My bones are picked clean
And riddled with regrets
Nothing can touch me
I've nothing left to take
For I am naked
But I can never break
DIVIDE
I lost myself in shapeless oceansWhose depths concealed more than they showed
Beliefs obscured by mists around them
A legacy they'd been bestowed
Columns of ice paint awkward pictures
Distorted forms that once seemed real
Engulfed inside transparent textures
Billowing curtains as hard as steel
For all the noise filling the landscape
Whispers & cries with no reply
It's quiet here within these boundaries
And thoughts collect like pools of light
My eyes divide the sky
As sirens sound in heaven
My will brings down the moon
And shatters it to pieces
The silence grew inconsequential
The day became a paradigm
A thousand years, a hundred decades
An arbitrary slice of time
I found myself with no companion
Except the salty earth and sky
And suddenly there came my focus
The world around me clarified
My eyes divide the sky
As sirens sound in heaven
My will brings down the moon
And shatters it to pieces
And so I walked in isolation
Hoping solace would cross my path
Ignored the road that lay behind me
And stepped away from the aftermath
I lost myself in shapeless oceans
Whose waters turned from dark to clear
I floated there, a tiny island
With no more doubt, with no more fear
My eyes divide the sky
As sirens sound in heaven
My will brings down the moon
And shatters it to pieces
SURFACE
FallSeize
I am merely debris
Scattered along the ground
False
Rage
A man in a cage
An explosion without a sound
Drawn
In
By the deafening din
Crumbling into dust
Look
Down
Watching me drown
Choking on my disgust
And when I surface again
I will not breathe the same air as you
And once my enemies are slain
My lungs will drink the liquid sky
Sink
Sleep
Drawing me deep
Pulling me underneath
Push
Strain
For the distant terrain
Struggling just to breath
Freeze
Fold
A story untold
A disaster that could have been
A precursor perhaps
To the cruelest collapse
A sign that I should have seen
And when I surface again
I will not breathe the same air as you
And once my enemies are slain
My lungs will drink the liquid sky
Burst
Through
The smothering blue
Falling into the sky
Rebirth
For whatever its worth
If only just to defy
Crush
Burn
With little concern
Feasting upon my prey
Tear
Rend
Expediting the end
Of everything in my way
And when I surface again
I will not breathe the same air as you
And once my enemies are slain
My lungs will drink the liquid sky
BREATH OF GHOSTS
I hear the breath of ghostsHiding behind the wind
Like an icy choir exhaling
A promise to rescind
I hear the breath of ghosts
Escaping from their lungs
Calling forth the names of those
That took away their tongues
A temporary permanence
A fortress of onionskin
With motives so transparent
With no means to an end
I feel the breath of ghosts
Like fingers on my skin
Tracing senseless patterns
Revealing nothing in the end
I hear the breath of ghosts
Whisper in my ear
With every drooling syllable
It preys upon my fear
A temporary permanence
A fortress of onionskin
With motives so transparent
With no means to an end
I hear the breath of ghosts
Blowing through the trees
Hissing out a warning
Awash with its disease
I hear the breath of ghosts
Slowly fade away
With ever decreasing frequency
As colors change to gray
A temporary permanence
A fortress of onionskin
With motives so transparent
With no means to an end
DISAPPOINT
Just one more timeFor the sake of sanity
Tell me why
Explain the gravity
That drove you to this
That brought you to this place
That pushed you down
Into the soil's embrace
Give me the chance
I was denied
To sit and talk with you
For one last time
Did I disappoint you?
Did I let you down?
Did I stand on the shore
And watch you as you drowned?
Can you forgive me?
I never knew
The pain you carried
Deep inside of you.
I can't forget
Having to see
The words that knocked the wind
Right out of me
It's not enough
I've come undone
Trying to find sense
Where there is none
Just give me peace
You owe me that
To help ward off the fears
I must combat
Did I disappoint you?
Did I let you down?
Did I stand on the shore
And watch you as you drowned?
Can you forgive me?
I never knew
The pain you carried
Deep inside of you.
And so I ask
For one more chance
To understand
This senseless circumstance
Help me to see
This through your eyes
The reasons I've been trying
To surmise
Though you are gone
I am still your son
And while your pain is over
Mine has just begun
Did I disappoint you?
Did I let you down?
Did I stand on the shore
And watch you as you drowned?
Can you forgive me?
I never knew
The pain you carried
Deep inside of you.
KING OF INSECTS
Words come easyBehind a screen
When there's no interface-to-face
To be seen
King of Insects
You eat your own
Atop an anthill
You call your throne
Kingdom of one
So unaware
As one-by-one your subjects
Vanish into air
Chatter to the wind
Make your decree
And save your venom
For the ones who disagree
Your castle walls are falling
Your body's frail
Your window on the world
Is minuscule in scale
Burrow deep now
Escape the light
Heaven forbid you have to face
The ones you slight
THE DROWNING SEASON
InstrumentalSILENCE
I want you to know the thoughtsMy mind contains
I want you to feel the rage
Pulse through my veins
I want you to see the anger
In my eyes
I want you to feel fear
For your own life
I want to see the tears
Fill up your eyes
I want to see you beg
And apologize
I want to walk behind you
Without a sound
I want to burn your body
To the ground
Don't let my silence
Bother you
I'm only seething
Don't misconstrue
Silence as safety
As security
There's an explosion
Inside of me
I want you to know the depths
Of my disgust
I want you to learn
The meaningless of trust
I want you to rue the day
That you were born
I want you to feel the fury
Of my storm
I want my silence to keep
You up at night
I want you to know the hatred
You incite
I want you to sit and listen
To me scathe
I want to dance upon your
Sorry grave.
Don't let my silence
Bother you
I'm only seething
Don't misconstrue
Silence as safety
As security
There's an explosion
Inside of me
